you're really bad at this aren't you

sometimes I really hate my parents

and my sister

and my family

and my teachers

and my friends

and everyone else around me

but then I keep calm

and remember

that it will do me no good

to become an ax murderer

and so

I content myself

with thoughts

of putting poison

in everyone's food

and laughing

while you all die.

and then shooting myself

in the head.

but there are the problems of acquiring a gun

and learning how to load it

and how to shoot it

and there is my shitty aim to consider

so I believe

the best

non-threatening way

is to

put poison

in my own food

and skip the others

and die.

but then I need to find poison. 

hmm...........

who knew it was so hard to commit suicide?

of course

I could just listen to you people talk

I feel my brain cells shriveling up and dying with every word

so maybe that is how it should be.