Wednesday, March 7, 2012

CIRCLE LENSES

I ordered a pair of grey GEO lenses in October.
I got them today.
:P
so apparently the US government stopped Dolly Color from delivering my lenses... but I finally got them!
and apparently my dad already opened the package (albeit the whole 'envelope addressed to Janis' thing) and then he was like "WHAT'S MAGIC COLOR HUH"
and I said "something to make me cute"
and he said "oh so you're not already cute?!"
...
and now I opened it and now I'm wearing them and they are very comfortable! I heard from some reviews that they were uncomfortable but what are those people smoking. Maybe they didn't get genuine GEO lenses...
Now some pictures, because obviously since this is my first pair of circle lenses I would document the whole experience with pictures :D
but of course, must camwhore first.

awk smile

I look good with half of my face covered

awk face

don't you think I look like a panda
with my eyebags and all
y'know
I think me and panda dear make a nice couple
On to the unwrapping! (package re-opening, really)

Dolly Color you came through for me :D

*shake shake shake* anything left?

oh, right. the lenses.

close up.

sent me an extra contact lens case as well! c:
Now on to actually putting on the lenses... just for a little bit, to test the comfort level. Then got to let them soak in contact lens solution overnight!

got one put in! opening those bottles was a biiiiitch

close up. in this light they look more blue-ish than grey

now with both in! more close up. They're supposed to be grey tho

they do look blue huh

yeesh these make my eyes look jumbo
lol lol lol they must not be very noticeable because my sister just came up to me and I looked her in the eye and she couldn't see any difference
sisterly pics

isn't she cute

see any resemblance?
and now for one final really really up close one
hi
hi hi

sisterly photobomb
wow my eyes are freaky
and my nose is ginormous wow I never really noticed
why can't I have a nice small nose
:c
and my face is really red omq

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

liveblogging101

a compilation of my latest Gmail status updates
I update dat shit more than my Twitter.
+random things that I think about
  • I like jackets, Haruki Murakami books, and you
  • 102% in chem, flat 90 in English, C in AP music theory, and D in math LOL
  • swim in 48 degree weather? NO PWOBLEM
  • every time I see Gomez I always think of happy monkeys
  • happy thoughts yo
  • when is Avatar: Legend of Korra coming out those trailers are jfdks;lafkj
  • when is EXO going to debut are they just going to release teaser after teaser too much foreplay SM
  • YOU WILL NEVER WIN THIS POKE WAR
  • can't wait for The Hunger Games to come out
  • WHO CAN ORDER STUFF ONLINE
  • listening to Street Corner Symphony is like having multiple eargasms at once
  • I think I am going delirious from lack of sleep
  • what is sleep
  • I don't need sleep
  • like a good neighbah, STATE FARM IS THEEEEEERE /jingle jingle/

Monday, March 5, 2012

oh Adele you understand don't you

I guess
I would like to talk to you very much, yes you would be my first choice
....except.
you are the one that I wish to talk about so it would not do
no it would never do to tell you what I wish to tell others about you
outsider's perspective, isn't that right?
I need outsiders' perspective.
but outsiders are never as interested as insiders are and so their perspective is given without much thought, really and I always feel that there is something subtly wrong with outsiders' perspective
maybe it's insider bias.
and
if I were to talk to you about you you would not take me seriously
or you would be
"confused"
or
"I see" ing me (see le pet peeves)
and plus I am uncomfortable, yes
uncomfortable talking to you because I don't know what to say or anything anymore
...this is getting very complicated and I don't like complicated the same way I don't like surprises
I guess I have to go and listen to Adele's sweet voice crooning bitter melodies
19, not 21
21 I feel has lost an elusive something
that elusive something that makes music enjoyable to listen to.
When will I feel that I can talk to you?
like, really talk to you
because I haven't
not yet.

differences of blogpinion

Okay.
So there are two topics I guess I just want to ... talk about that have been bothering me. But since my posts are not known for their organization, I think I'll just have to ramble on and on until the point of all this has been ... realized.

please note that the following is simply my opinion and the way I see things and I am by no means disrespecting anyone else's opinion nor am I trying to point out particular blogs.
First of all, people are not going to stop making fun of you (or your blog) just because you want them to. Even if (actually, especially if) the people who are making fun of your blog are your friends. You can tell them to stop all you want, you can write angry blog posts about it all you want -- fact is that they still think it's funny. And really, I don't think that they see it the way you do (I am hypothesizing that this is the way you see it, by the way). You see your blog as a nice place for all your confessions, where you can just dump everything and hope not too many people see it. Of course, you still want people to read your blog: why else would you put your URL in your Gmail status? Just enough readers to feel loved, yet not too many that will simply troll and quote you at inopportune times.
See, here's the thing -- other people don't really think that way. Oh, here's a kid with really, really overdramatic (do you think they're overdramatic? probably not) posts and funny descriptions let's read it to each other in dramatic voices.
They don't really want to hurt you, and they're not mocking you. Not really. I think they're just mocking the style in which you write. Not the way you're hurting, or your unrequited loves (which are really quite common in high school, as they usually fade after three months), or you. Just the way you word your posts.
But you don't get that, of course. You just see it as people mocking you, you're already quite sensitive, people are natural trolls, and then this whole fiasco occurs where you're upset and you just keep getting more upset and what do you do when you're upset? write blog posts! and angry, overdramatic blog posts are like steak and wine to trolls.
Of course, I believe if you let your friends know that you don't like it when they make fun of you, that your blog posts mean a lot to you, they'll stop. Unless they're bad friends. In which case you have my full approval whenever you decide to emasculate them with titanium sporks.
And you could always go with the option of changing URLs or making a new blog, if the attention really gets to you. The fact that you haven't yet makes me wonder if you're really just making a big fuss about the whole thing.

Second, it's all very nice and well to say that it's okay for people to make jokes on your 'relaxed' posts, but have to take your 'serious' posts seriously. Yes, you are right in saying that most people read blogs for amusement. Most people (myself included) aren't going to read your posts all the way through because it's boring staring at lines and lines of text. Like, deadly boring. I guess it's because we're used to TV and Internet and Youtube and etc., where stuff is always jumping around for our attention, so unless it's about a subject that truly intrigues us, or a person that we're interested in, we don't pay that much attention.
Which is a fault on our part.
But you still can't really tell people when to make jokes and when not to.
I mean, if you want to spend three hours thinking up a blog post and researching and like writing your college application essay on your blog or something, that's fine. Do whatever you like. But trolls will be trolls, and trolls are nearsighted.
As for me, my posts are basically pictures of me, things I'm doing at the moment, some lame thing that I thought was witty at the moment, and other derpy stuff. And I'm proud of it.

wow that was like my first 'serious serious' blog post wow

what

Okay, so maybe I reacted in a slightly weird way.
I was hysterical, and tired, and dead, and then you just start a chat with me and then all of a sudden tell me that you "love me" and so on and so forth.
So
of course
I think you're trolling me, or joking, or kidding or whatever
so I respond with "LOL" and then I forget what happened after that because it was all awkward and slightly blurred and my mindset was that of a drunkard.
But then days after that you always start chats with me
and
I'm like
what
can you not
this is confusing
.........you were kidding, right?
I am 99.99999% you were kidding
but
...this is still weird.

wow why am I so ugly

attractiveness

Why is it that when an attractive girl
and an attractive boy
get together
and make an attractive couple
of attractiveness
they suddenly seem
much more attractive than before
if only
because
they are now
(much more)
unattainable
(that much more)
set apart
and
they are pretty
on their own
apart
but together
they are fascinating
and
beautiful
like how a forest fire
is beautiful.

le yays

Got into Smith College's summer writing program!!!


heheehehheeheheehehee
they even sent the letter in a fancy envelope
on fancy paper
and fancy font
and they said that they were very impressed with my application


although I guess they'd say that to every applicant they accept
hm.