cries

So today I was bored w/ nothing to do (that's a lie, I've got Psych outlines/flashcards to do, Ch. 24 GR to finish, and summer app essays to work on)

and decided to attempt to use my sister's curling iron, despite my obviously too short hair.

Just curled the tips. Kinda.

Managed to hit the left side of my face with it for a brief moment and while it isn't burned, it kinda stings.

Now I miss my long hair.
Also, I can rap better than Mark. This is an accomplishment.

too much work

Inhaled lots of sharpie fumes. Not pleasant.

"creepy but cute" --Minh-Tuan

He complained about how I made him wait for so long.
Hah.
Sorry my poster was in Shehzad's car bc I didn't want to carry it awkwardly around school.
YOU DESERVED TO WAIT

I threw the poster away so I didn't have to bring it back home and face awkward questions from my dad.
Also bc he wouldn't take it.
IF YOU DON'T WANT ME TO USE BAD PICTURES OF YOU, DON'T TAKE BAD PICTURES LOL

And I haven't even asked my parents if I can go yet. Or my swim coach if I can leave practice early l0l.
Too much work.

l0000000l

Hello once again, audience!

Props to you if you know which Youtuber that intro's from (lately I've been watching quite a lot of his videos... especially the ones about minecraft since I pirated Minecraft 1.4.7 yesterday! laglag)

Buuuut since it's four-day-weekend and I finished all of my homework and one summer app and I went shopping yesterday, here's an OOTD/haul post for you all!!

Except you all don't care. 

But I like taking pictures of what I buy. So h4h4h4

OH ALSO AN EXCERPT FROM MY CONVERSATION W/ MINH-TUAN TODAY

I like to think I'm clever sometimes.

Who's kawaii?!??? You, yes you!!

loljk it's me

Badtz-Maru sweater from Forever21!

It's thick and warm and fuzzy and fits perfectly. Ordered from Forever21's "buy 1 get 1 free" Hello Kitty sale!

w/ faithful black harem capri pants from YesStyle. Don't mind the mess on the rug

the high-low t-shirt I got along w/ the sweater. both same price so ended up buying each for like $10

Went shopping yesterday as well @ Newpark Mall! 50% off already marked down items!!!

this gorgeous really soft smooth sweater for only $6 (original $24.80)

nice high waisted floral shorts!!! for warm spring days (lately it's been really nice and sunny^^)

didn't feel like changing so yeah normally I wouldn't pair these two together l0l but just to show you what it looks like on me

original $15.80, marked down to $8.99, then 50% to $4.50!!!

pretty green floral skirt w/ elastic waistband + zipper accent pockets

also high waisted.

did I tell you I wore a two-piece yesterday for swim practice at 11am-1pm and then my one piece tan was completely gone??? well it was. and now i have a two piece tan haha

Also marked down to $4.50!!!

Aiite. We out.
(meaning we going to watch some more minecraft videos hahhahahHAHAHa)

who would have thought

Feeling pretty okay today so I guess double update today?! Haha after slacking off in January... sorry finals kicked my butt and then swim season started and then I was too busy talking to Minh-Tuan and laughing at racist jokes and reading EXO fanfics to blog.
(Excuses, excuses.)

Well anyways now that I've reached 10k hits on this blog (mostly for my pictures, heh) I guess it's time to make another blog post?! I don't know?! This paragraph originally had a point???

Time trials for swim season today. They also took place yesterday, but I had an orchestra concert to go to so I only swam the 100 free (1:05) yesterday. Wow, added two seconds from last year :C

OH OH OH funny stories from the concert yesterday--

Orchestra was backstage and waiting for the concert to start (Hopkins kids already left to their seats) and then finally we got moving and Mark said, "Where are we going?" To which I replied, "CANDY MOUNTAIN!11!1!1!!1!" with an inordinate amount of enthusiasm. As I said this, we were walking out of the theater room and into the hallway, where there was a vending machine filled with (gasp!) candy. And Damon (the cutest freshman ever, omq he has an adorable baby face and he recently got these lovely Ray Ban frames that I pretty much want to steal), who heard me, pointed at the vending machine that he was standing in front of and said, "Candy mountain???" LOLLLLLL

Also also also
Me Louisa and Victoria didn't want to go back into the theater after we performed (which was a terrible disaster, by the way, but which one of our concerts isn't?) and so we went to the girls' bathroom to gossip like we did during the winter concert. Well then we came out, and there was this alcove near the bathroom where we could sit down and be unobserved from the general lobby.
So we were sitting there and playing Down By The Banks (cult song!!!) and then Harrison (the scary band guy???) came along and just looked at us and was like "wow omq I can't even" (he'd already come across us once and asked us to go into the theater lollll)
And then later we were joined by Mark and Sean and other people and we played more Down By The Banks and Harrison caught us again and then his face really was like "I can't deal with this I wasn't paid enough for this crap" and Louisa asked him if he'd like to join omq
Needless to say, he did not, and we went in and watched Wind Ensemble like good kids.

Back to time trials-- Jeremy was really surprisingly fast actually.
I beat Chris in the 100 IM looooool
All the guys look really weird in caps I'm sorry.

Times:
50 free: 29.06
50 breast: 35.64
100 IM: 1:11
50 back: 35.90 (slower than breast! dishonor on my cow)
50 fly: 33.02

Jeremy kept talking about his 28.98 50 fly l0l "The cap makes all the difference!!!!!1!1!1!"
Yeah, it's not that you slack off during practice and am still fast. I'm jealous :C I can't get fast unless I try every practice.
But swim season is starting to look like a gr9 year.
Swim practice tomorrow! Two-piece Friday, actually haha. I'm kind of looking forward to it.

"tryhard"

Honestly, if someone else is doing better than you in something, whether it's academics or sports or whatever, what's the use of calling them a "tryhard" or an "overachiever"? (actually I have less of a problem with 'overachiever' it's more of a joking/friendly term, but still)

Once, I was talking with my friend about some girl that her brother used to have a 'thing' with and she told me that she disliked her. Since I knew this girl was rather well-liked and popular-ish at our school, I asked her why. She couldn't answer me directly, and finally said "...she's a tryhard."

...Okay.

I don't know if I have this correct, but to my knowledge, 'tryhard' means exactly what it sounds like: people that try hard. 

Is that a bad thing?

Is it bad that people try hard to do whatever they're doing that's better than whatever you're doing? Or are you just jealous?

"Oh, yeah, I didn't try that hard, so ofc so and so beat me in blah blah blah, yeah, they're just a tryhard."

Really.

Another instance: yesterday, at time trials during swim practice, my friend was talking to some other people about 'tryhards', something along the extent of "wow these people are trying so hard, wearing race suits/caps blah blah tryhards"

So, when they beat your ass at swimming, it's because they were wearing race suits and you weren't? Or was it bc they're just faster than you? Oh no, you have to explain the speed difference away with "they were trying hard" and you weren't.

...Since when has trying hard become a bad thing?

???

(disclaimer: most of my poetry is not based on real life)

what do you want out of this relationship you say
and i say nothing but
can you read it in my eyes?

i want to go away
far away from you and everyone that
i may or may not love,
surround myself with strangers—
their smiles no less artificial
than the ones at home.

and then maybe,
after a year or two
i will come back to the same
dusty old train station
in the same small fragile town
and there you’ll be
you won’t ask me for an explanation
(you won’t need one)
and before i know it you will have
swept me up in your arms and
i’ll be flying in the blue of your eyes.

you look into my eyes
carefully
like a frog which was born in a well
who only knows of the two-foot sky
that encompasses his universe.
and i see i have already lost you—
in the space of
an imagined year
in the ideal
that was so much better than reality.

you say nothing as well,
and where there used to be blue in your eyes
there is now a curious emptiness.