this is an update

First, pictures because I like to think I'm cute.

I seem to have this pose a lot...

I realize that I haven't been making many posts lately, but it's not because I'm lazy. Okay yeah, that's part of the reason, but also lately I haven't had many... feels worthy of being blogged. I do have feels but they're so... jfkdsl;akdjlfsk that I am rendered incoherent and... yeah.
Moving on.
I'm so busy. Like I have so many due dates/deadlines looming overhead yet... I don't have any motivation. At all. Okay, I know what you are all thinking -- "Janis, you never had any motivation to do anything before, either!" No, actually, I did study the day before and still manage to get good grades and stuff. But it seems now that it's May, it's warm, short-wearing weather, and I'm just really really extremely lazy all of a sudden and can't even rouse myself to do anything like before. When my conscience was more active. Now it's just... slumbering. I get terrible lab grades in chem but I don't care because... well, because I still have an A. I don't understand a thing but keep bullshitting all my lab answers because I'm literally thinking "paq yoo all" while writing them.
Extremely worried about all my finals, especially English and AP Music Theory because I have flat 90's in those classes... and those classes are the ones with the hardest finals. They're both group/partner projects and the thing is, my group is basically as lazy as me so there's no one to get me moving =___= Have to memorize 60 lines of Shakespeare and act it out w/ costumes/props for English, partnered up with Caleb and so far we have done nothing. ...
But I also have the choir performance tomorrow, which I am soloing in, which I have barely (if even that) memorized the movements/lyrics/words. Used to be I had no trouble with memorization.... but the entire choir group is so tired and lethargic and we don't try anyways so.
Also with AP Chinese I take it on Saturdays so I must write a report/give a two minute oral presentation on a movie we watched in class.... yeah, should probably start on that too. (In all reality, going to be typing it up the day before it's due......)
More stuff like Syncopasians' audition that I'm STILL not sure if I want to audition for, since that'll be another thing to stack on my plate for next year.
During the summer, after all this finals bs is over, I have SAT boot camp and SAT Chinese to study for and precal too. Then the English writing workshop in Boston.
Busy busy busy....
Oh and feels too. Since I love EXO (and they're in LA right now RIGHT NOW and they were just in Disneyland DISNEYLAND and so many fans got real up close with them and pictures too AND REAL HD CLOSE UP PICTURES TOO) and my feels I can't
and there's a boy mixed in my feels too but
I can't let myself get too distracted I guess? Just end up sleeping later and later and waking up earlier and earlier and hormones and pimples and gah
Would it help my shit life if I were attractive